Let Go!!! Let Me!!!

Before I walked into my first Al-Anon meeting, my need to relieve my anger, resentment and dispare over my wifes alcoholism lead me to the Internet. I searched and I read, read some more, and I searched some more. One day, I found a page entitled Detach with Love. As I sat reading, all the while asking myself "What does this mean?" will this be some "How To" guide on leaving ones relationship on a positive note...? Shall I pack my bags, say "I love you" and kiss my Wife goodbye?

As I kept reading, anxiously waiting for a sentence that would free me of all my fears & worries, a sudden calmness washed over me. Words entered into my Heart, "Let Go and Let Me!! My Higher Power wanted me to know that it was OK!!! That I could continue to stay in my relationship, I could love my Wife, but most of all I could Let Go!!! I could take care of me!! With time, I am learning to see my Wife separate from this disease called "Alcoholism." This new view I have found allows me to have HOPE!! My Wife is finding her Higher Power, and their walks together are working for her. I no longer feel the need to fix or save the Alcoholic. This awakening comes with rewards, sorrows and a promise of a new journey I have titled "Recovery with Love."